I know I felt miserable fighting over him. The thing is, we understand. We made things possible for our relationship to build a stronger relationship. Again, we gained back the love we had before. We bring sparks to it. We gave the best we could to fight our love over pride. It’s has always been LOVE and never pride. It has always been the unending nurture of love that makes us grew stronger each day and everyday. The Love never runs out. We always have it and it will always overflow in our relationship.
Thank God, we talked. We can get things through. We’ll sacrifice for it.
Love is all that matters.
Because you never fail to listen to my mundane dramas. I’ve never even expected that you will be a true friend to me. I have a few true friends, and you are most definitely one of them. And I am so blessed because you gave me hope in so many ways that I lost hope and now found them because of you.
I have many friends in life, and a few are chosen close to my heart. I am not even a perfect friend to have because I make mistakes and that doesn’t mean I cannot help other people. We all make mistakes and we have to forgive one another after. I can be very helpful, because I know I am a good listener, I know I am very understandable when it comes to their problems. I am always the bridge between the two of my friends fighting each other. I am not just on one side, I am most definitely on both sides of them because they are my friends. And each of them has their own opinions and rights and even wrongs. I have always been a great friend in others. Most especially to my closer friends. I opened up to them because I have the connection where I can only felt it when I trust that person, entirely and tell him or her about anything about me. Even though I am not there financially to help them, because I don’t have savings yet that can make me afford to buy anything. But I can help them whenever they needed someone to talk to, to dealt their problems with, and can be by their side always.
So friend, whenever you needed my help, I will always be here for you. To listen with all your dramas, to do what I can to give you some advice. I know I cannot dictate you for your own decisions, you can do that for yourself, for what you think is right for you and for the better. But I can assure to give my love and effort to be a good and true friend. I love you always and very much! <3
Do you really want to be with him again, honestly?
it’s just a fucking FANTASY that you are up to. He wasn’t even sorry for what he did back then and stop trying to turn things back to the way they were when it is already been done! And if he really wants you back, he already did it in the first place. Stop making a fool out of yourself and just think about yourself and stop fantasizing about it cause it’s really mean and ridiculous of you to even slap it in someone’s face like you’re being secretly a “mean, plastic” bitch in my back.
I can be a good friend, but what you did was flirting and mean. I am still apologizing and saying sorry in the first place because I am not born to be “mean” to people, I am only mean to those people who are doing something inappropriate and that is way out of the line. So I hope you’ll get the message. We are not perfect, yes we’re not! But, I am being a good friend to you, sorry if I am. But if you don’t like it. Then it is actually fine with me. If it means, it is awkward, I don’t fucking care at all. I am just me, myself and a nice person with a good heart. So go fuck yourself and stop worrying about your fantasies with my boyfriend. duh.
The annoying thing about it is that people tries to BLAME you for the wrong reasons. It’s just that it happens all the time. People just make up their own mind and blame you on something you didn’t actually do in the first place. It’s so friggin’ annoying that they made up all the stories they’ve told to someone which it wasn’t even true at all. They’re so mean and deceitful. They don’t even know what they’re doing. It hurts but I tried to understand that ignorant person who does that to me all the time. I mean they’re aware of it, but they just deny the fact that they have an ugly heart. They just don’t get it. I tried to be very understanding. But sometimes it’s too much hearing all the lies and the blames that my ears are just gonna blow up already. -sigh-
Once I get impatient, I just burst out BOOM! There I was crying and explain my side to them. But laughing at me because I am crying on something I didn’t even do… Why can’t they just open up their minds and tell themselves that they are the ones who are wrong. Admit to themselves that they have also mistaken too. It’s not always about you people. It’s also about others and not being so selfish about it. I hope they try to even listen to the ones who are been treated wrongfully.
If ever I have done wrong to you, I am sorry. I know we’re only humans and we make mistakes but doing it for so many times already is a hypocrite. -___-
I just want to vent this. Cause it feels like hell not to express myself on writing.
I hope that person should apologize too. And be true to herself/himself.
I’m not even fake. I’m being honest and being true to myself. I’ll just pray for those human beings who are like that all the time.
Above: taken from the webcam. So it’s kind of not that obvious.
Above: Well, it’s obvious already. The “Lashes” :)
He’s always been my weakness and my strongest. He will always be the one for me that I couldn’t afford losing. We never ever gave up on something so small and even bigger ones. But we assure that Love still sparks whenever, wherever, whatever…
We never failed to keep it in our hearts and in our minds. It is our Destiny to love each other, it is our destiny that our soul’s are twins and connects with each other for better and for worst.
Cause he has always been good to me. Without Him where would I be leading my path onto? But, as of now I’m in glorious bliss! He gave me the opportunity to SHINE as bright as the sun and the moon. I’m very very much happy that I got my results and I totally PASSED my NLE! WOoooohoooo!!! This is the perfect moment and the perfect time to be always thankful for everything He has done for me. I believed in failing there’s always a greater possibility that I can surely win at the end of the road. He never did fail to listen to me. All the efforts and works I did, it’s all worth it. I took the NLE for the 3rd time and on this February 15, 2012, I finally had the result all positively and my name on one of the board passers who took the NLE last December. This was such an amazing gift that I have ever received in my entire life! So thank you Lord for giving me this moment, the tears of happiness in my heart felt really really good. Thank you cause you have listened everyday to my prayers and talking to you is the best part where I am only talking to the one person who understood me that there can always be a miracle that happens in our lives for a reason. I made my whole Family proud of me because I am a certified Registered Nurse. :) You have given me the light I always wanted and needed in my most troubled days. I believed in you for always, even at times I have so much doubts in me, I still prayed for positivity to come in to my life, for the greater outcomes and for the joys that I always craved for. You have given me everything I need and it’s enough for me Lord. I know I have faith because I never gave up on myself and to you Lord. I always have that faith in me that I shouldn’t give up on a certain thing that is my gift to heal. I always keep that in mind that whatever I do, I lift it all up to you Lord. You will be my patient and I will be nursing you Lord. That’s how I will treat also to my other patients, because they mean to be fragile and they need to be cared 100%.
To God be the Glory! Amen. :)
Smile, is one way to make things feel perfectly fine and pretend that nothing is wrong. lol :)
It gives me so much stress seeing everybody had their own gifts from their boyfriends except ME. -sigh- I mean why am I stressing on this day? Fuck this day! I hate it. Maybe I’m just too narrow to think of like that anyway. I hate my boyfriend today because I just do. Fuck hormones bcoz’ it just comes up and down. I hate it! I got all moody tonight because of the stresses that is coming over me. I get into fights with my boyfriend bcoz’ he’s an idiot asshole. I’m glad I got my period back on track. I’m glad God gave me hope everyday of my life. While I’m crying and shedding tears right now and I keep blaming myself that I’m foolish and just confused. I’m also glad that I’d get to see my favorite tv shows so at least it helped to keep my mood in place. But still I am bothered with all these thoughts in my head and I can’t seem to clear things up.
Lord, if ever you listen to me right now, all I ask of you Lord please help me clear my thoughts and think of what is the right thing to do for later on this day. Amen.
I have this long agony of waiting for the final results of my examination. I’m claiming it and hoping it for the best. God is good always! He knows whatever it is I told Him about. I prayed for it every single day and never ever forget how thankful I am each day that I learned how to smile, laugh, cry and getting sad. Even feel loved and hate at the moment.
I’m sorry Lord if ever I did something wrong today, or if ever I misunderstood someone, please forgive me for my wrongs. I forgive them whoever has done wrong from me too. Amen.
It’s time for bed now and only venting it out here that can ease the pain a little bit and can make me feel a relaxing beat in my heart. I feel at ease right now, writing my thoughts and feelings here. It feels good to let it all just out in my thoughts and in my heart for at time that I couldn’t take it anymore. So here it is. It’s almost done.
After all these times we’ve had been through, she’s always all ears for me and I to her too. We’re both crazy and we just like being straight forward. We shared a lot of stuffs, stories to tell, moments to be together again. We’ve been bestfriends since our Senior years up to now. She’s very rare to find and I couldn’t afford losing a person like her in my life. I thought I did lose her but we came back alive and our friendship just grew together and from all those times we’ve missed to have spent time together in college, was now coming back to life. I missed her so much that having a true friend is very odd to find. I’m very much thankful God gave me those few friends but true and be a part of my life. Hoping our friendship will never break and stay as true as it has always been. :)
I couldn’t resist thinking about it everyday if where the hell did I even place it or if I throw it out in the trash can. ugh! It feels so horrible for me of not having it right now. God help me find it and remembered if where did I place my nasal spray. Pretty please help me clear my thoughts right now.
We’re trying very hard to make things possible. Just a lot of stuffs going on this year.
Lord, I hope everything will be fine. I really really do want things to be okay. Especially, I have my result this coming Saturday. I’m nervous at the same time thinking of my family and what we have all been through this year. It’s very tough and I’m trying to be as stronger as I am. I want and need to make things happen. Maskin ako nalang makapalipay ky mama kg ky papa this year. Lord, I’ll make sure that they won’t get dissapointed again. Gusto ko man mag maayu sa mata nila. Kag sa akon man mismo nga kaayuhan. Hindi ko man gusto na amo na lang na permi ang nakita ni mama sa amon, nga problema na lang permi ang panumduman niya sa amon. I promise you Lord, everything that I have said right now or in my prayers alone with you in silence, I’ll keep it.
Okay where do I start? I kind of wanted to talk about what I believed back then about “hola” which my family believed in future predictions. When I was still little like below 16 I wasn’t allowed to try the future prediction cards or tarot cards. So after I am 16 I tried on it and got a bit nervous because everybody is hearing abou your life. It can be a past, present or a future. You could also get to choose from either of the 3. It was interesting and also not interesting. Cause it’s both ways. there will be negatives and positives.
I somehow liked it from the start but then I get all dissappointed about it. Cause some are just not true and yes a few of it are true. But I don’t think she can predict my future. My destiny changes, my life changes everyday. We cannot rely on these things like in the cards. But I believed that there is a God and I depend on Him and I trust in Him with all his work for me. I don’t need to depend on those prediction cards or “hola” or tarot cards. All I need is my God who is my strength, my Father. That’s why I stopped believing in those things and Believed in myself and in what I know what’s best for me. Cause it will make me great. And I know I can make things possible by believing in myself. :)
I just want to vent it all here on tumblr. I’m so hooked up with a lot of thinkings right now.
That you just can’t get it out of your system. You just want to get tempted.
I always feel so depressed. Why? Why life gives me a headache? Or am I making it? lol. Life is good sometimes but sometimes it’s giving me heartaches and heartbreaks. Which is all of the above.