Doesn’t mean I failed twice or more than that I will give up on my dreams and live up to their expectations all the time. I’m not perfect and I make mistakes all the time. I just wish you could’ve just appreciate my being, my potential in what I have only got is what I know and what i do best. Nobody gets it. It’s just so hard for them to realize that I am not like what they think I am. I am different. A different person with different dreams. Not similar to my sisters. But now, all I have to do is go on and do my very best! Then if something happens which is GOOD, then everybody is happy. But when I failed again, then I’ll go in a different move. Not just stick forever to this exams. I’ll work my butt out there! And prove to them that they are wrong in what they think I am. I know they’re losing faith in me. Cause they’re working hard for me and for my sisters. I know, I’m burden to them. I’m sorry if I am. I hope they could forgive me for that. I promise to myself one thing that is I am so sure of. I’ll keep it to myself this time and I will not yet reveal it. It’s a secret. My family is very much important to me. I know I failed them. Yes, they know what is best for me too. But the only problem is they don’t know how or what I really feel inside. I only know me. They don’t know that I am crying inside my room, screaming on my pillow and get really miserable. They are too blind to see the real me. From what I have been through mostly like this before, this is by far the worst in my years of life. You know that feeling of tragedy, miserable in life, crying my heart out and broken. I am going through a lot and I know people don’t appreciate it, they don’t see it. It’s fine with me. How I wish the pain will be gone. How I wish I will feel nothing. How I wish I was numb and as hard as a rock. Those are just wishes. I can do that if I can.
I am no near to perfections. Imperfection is my brand in life and hard work is what I seek. Diskarti sa kabuhi dapat my ara gid!
Yeah, that is my GOAL this BER months. I need to desperately FOCUS my attention to my studies. I want to give my all 100% and do the best I can. Negativity turns out to be a bad trip over me. So it gives me the creeps and stress in life. I need to kick it out of my life cause it will make it impossible. While Positivity on the other hand is needed to be FOCUS! FOCUS! FOCUS! Gawd, Anne please focus focus focus! San- o ka pa ya mag RN??????????????????! Subong na bala nga December RN kna dapat!!! e Claim mo nana kay imo na ni chansa!!!! KAYA MO NA! Kilanlan mo lang gid mag porsigi kag FOCUS GID SA STUDIES MO!!! You cannot achieve if you lack the motivation and focus on your studies and review! DUH! WAKE UP ANNE! You need to FOCUS yourself to one thing….. NGA MAGING RN KA! RN, RN, RN Dec. 2011!!! Please make it possible this time!!!!!! You have all the time you need!!! FOCUS!!! HELP YOURSELF TO ACHIEVE THAT DREAM!
Having my 2nd dose of HPV immunization for the prevention of Cervical Cancer.
Respect a Lady.
Treat her like you would want a man to treat your sister, In other words, treat her as a person, not an object. Really treat her like a princess and always try and give her comments that make her feel good rather than put her down
Listen to her opinions or ideas. Appreciate her as she is and never underestimate her intelligence. Treat her as an equal. Call her in advance to make plans to go out and never assume that she doesn’t have anything better already scheduled..
Listen to her and respond in a non-condescending manner. Be there for her if she’s crying or upset by holding her. compliment her…if you think she is beautiful say it! “beautiful” is so much more respectful than “hot”. Love and learn to appreciate her for who she is, as well as her body type. Don’t try and change her physically, just love her natural beauty.
Hold hands with her on the street…don’t be ashamed to be romantic and when you meet up with your friends, introduce her. Don’t ever cheat on her…talk things through.
Be a gentleman! Look out for her feelings, accept her values/morals, be interested in her life, ask her what’s going on, be helpful, never put her down, if she’s wrong don’t go out of your way to prove her. Be nice and treat her like she is special. Don’t push her to do things she is not ready for. Treat her with respect and pay attention to the small things.
Don’t put her down, or make her feel uncomfortable when you are hanging out together with your friends or your parents, Stand up for her, if one of your friends puts her down, confront them and tell them that it is not okay.
me want that shirt. :D
(Source: weheartit.com, via istalkfashion)
(Source: weheartit.com, via istalkfashion)
Tyler and I playing with his ball and pillow. :)
Esther from Styleboss was so kind to send me one of her feather ear cuffs. She makes a variety of hand made ear cuffs. In her store she has a LOT of feather ear cuffs and even beaded ones. I love how they are fixable and they can fit to your ear. So please check out her store here and follow her tumblr here.
It is all been done. Why can’t you just fuckin’ move on with your life?
Don’t you get it? Can’t you see it? You are fooling with yourself.
I can’t trust you around him. But I trust my Man.
So please stop being a slut around him. Stop hurting yourself dear. Just wake up in your death bed and get your shit done. :p
taken: several months ago. :)
Believing that my dreams will soon come true.
Believing that I’m going to be healthy.
Believing that love will last forever.
Believing that I will succeed.
Believing that everything will turn out great.
Staying positive is what I have to do, at least!
I was entirely wrong to say the least. That you weren’t a good listener. But indeed, you are thee BEST man I ever met! I never thought I would be so special to you in every way, in every hour, in every second, in every minute and in everyday. You understood me in what I do and in what I don’t do best. In the things that captivate the entity of my existence in his world. I was wrong to think he was like other men out there. But NO, he was unlikely and a gift from above. I know we all have a purpose here on earth, and I think he was one of my purpose here. He wasn’t the type I wanted, the guy I never knew that I could like or even love as much as I do, until now. I never thought he would like or love me either. But our souls have collided and got attached with each other. It was the moment where we got infatuated and then just fell in love with a bliss. I guess, we are attracted to each other. We have that certain chemistry like no other. We’re a bit different and also similar to each other. We don’t mind what circumstances that it will take us, as long as love is as strong as it is right now, we know we can make it no matter what the outcome may be. Love is him. He give definition to it and I to him. We brought love back together for the second time around. We fight for love, we always do our best to be good for each other, to be faithful and respect each other. To be loyal to one another. Like we all know, it has to be “NO LIES, JUST LOVE”. We’re not perfect and we do crazy stuffs all the time.
I know now, his love grows more and more each day. He always gives me that butterfly feeling in my stomach. He is oh so sweet in texting, calling and expressing himself to me. He told me last night, “Why am I so in love with you? What did you do to make me fall for you over and over again?”. He was asking me that question cause he feels entirely amazing and totally happy. And he answered his questions too. lol. He is funny and cute at the same time. He said: ” You’re everything to me Babe and I know couldn’t afford losing you, you are my life. And I am madly in love with you”. He had those moments of teary-eyed and I smiled and I was on cloud 9. I know I had the BEST MAN in the whole wide world. I’m thankful cause he is sincere with his words. I am amazed by his thoughtfulness and sweetness. Especially expressing his love for me is the BEST THING EVER! :)
Never been this HAPPY.
Emerald City Nail polish by Revlon
I love wearing it. It lasted in a week.
And we did fell apart. I broke up with him that time, that I lose my patience and then realized that what I did for him, all the efforts I have given, the love I have given, the patience that I try not to lose just burst into something I didn’t expected. And it was the part where I feel numb, that I cared less, I didn’t felt any feeling like it was before. You know, the sad part where you tried everything you could but that certain thing he can do for you is just by saying he was sorry for what he did. Which it wasn’t easy for me, but for him it was like easy for him to say SORRY. Sorry is not an ordinary word that you can say to person, in front of her or him and like nothing happens. Sorry is the hardest word to say to someone and you have to mean it, like really mean what you say. It’s not just a word, it’s more than that.
But what matters most is NOW. Cause we got back together and we created something a little different in our relationship. I’m just happy and lucky to have him, again. :) People Change so as feelings. Change is inevitable.